I decided I would write the answers to some questions that are out of my comfort zone.
1.
Given
the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?
Hmm, this is a hard one. I love the idea of sitting and
talking to one of the world’s greatest minds, but would I be the worst dinner
date ever to them? I think so. I would love to sit and have a chat with Elon
Musk, see what goes on in his head when he thinks of some idea and has the
means and ability to make those thoughts reality. That must be amazing.
2.
Would
you like to be famous? In what way?
I would only want to be famous if I could guarantee that I
would be left alone. I would hate being
followed or have pictures taken of me. I
want to know people and have people know me, but I don’t want them to need to
talk to me and interrupt my daily life.
3.
Before
making a telephone call, do you ever rehearse what you are going to say? Why?
Before I make a phone call to a business, I have tons of
anxiety about what I am going to say or how I could potentially mess things
up. I don’t tend to answer my phone for
numbers I don’t know. Calls to friends
or family are rare, but they are comfortable and don’t require mental scripts.
4.
What
would constitute a ‘perfect’ day for you?
1.
Waking up fully rested.
2.
Driving to the beach.
3.
Eating lunch watching the waves.
4.
Reading a book while I listen to the ocean.
5.
An afternoon boat ride.
6.
Dinner at a restaurant overlooking the sea.
7.
Massage at a hotel
8.
Sitting on the balcony drinking some cocktails
9.
Snuggling into bed with the person I love.
5.
When
did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?
I sing to myself anytime I hear music, so about two minutes
ago listening to Pandora. The last time
I purposefully sang at someone was singing to my son to comfort him to sleep
when he didn’t feel good. I would say
tons of people fall prey to hearing me unintentionally though.
6.
If
you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a
30-year-old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you want?
This is an amazing question.
I would choose the mind of a 30 year old because I wouldn’t want to give
up the wisdom of the 90 years of life to something like dementia. I have never been one to care too much about
my body.
7.
Do
you have a secret hunch about how you will die?
My guess would be that I will die of old age after a long,
boring, monotonous life. I don’t break
out of the mold very often.
8.
Name
three things you and your partner appear to have in common.
1.
Sense of humor
2.
Intellect
3.
Goals
9.
For
what in your life do you feel most grateful?
I am grateful for my son.
I have not always been the most patient person, but he teaches me that I
am not the least patient person either.
There are some days where he drives me crazy, but I wouldn’t trade those
crazy days for anything.
10. If you could change anything
about the way you were raised, what would it be?
Wow, I would change so much about how I was raised. My mother worked all day to ensure that we
had the food we needed and the clothes to wear.
They weren’t ever in style or even remotely cute, but her work ethic has
stuck with me throughout my life. I
would say I would change how often I got to be with my mom. Maybe give her a better, more high paying job
so that she would have had less stress in life and been more present.
11.
Take
four minutes and tell your partner your life story in as much detail as
possible.
I was born in Modesto, CA.
My grandma lived there until her death, so we visited biannually after
we moved to Visalia, CA. I went to
school in Visalia, got my friends there and I always return to there. I went away to college at 17 for one semester
before I left and became someone’s wife at the ripe age of 18. I was divorced by 23 and sort of floating in
life. I moved to Phoenix, AZ and I had
my son when I was 25, I turned 26 ten days later. He became my primary focus in life and I
became more obsessed with providing for his wellbeing. I moved back to California when my son was 17
months old. I worked a job that I didn’t
love for a company that I didn’t trust.
When I left there, I decided that I was going to redirect and find a
place that I could feel appreciated. I
found the job I am currently in 5 years ago and it has had its moments when I
wondered why I got out of bed to attend, but for the most part I love my
coworkers and I love my job. Oh and
somewhere in there I got married again and divorced again.
12.
If
you could wake up tomorrow having gained any one quality or ability, what would
it be?
If I could wake up tomorrow with one ability, it would be an
eidetic memory. Think of the
possibilities!
13.
If
a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future
or anything else, what would you want to know?
I would want to know where I wind up. How it turns out.
14.
Is
there something that you’ve dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you
done it?
I would love to travel more.
I want to see the world and experience the awesome things that are out
there. I haven’t done it because I care
too little about my own stuff and focus too much on how work is going or how my
son is doing or any myriad of other things that aren’t “me”.
15.
What
is the greatest accomplishment of your life?
The greatest accomplishment in my life has been being able
to walk away when things weren’t healthy for me or my child. I’ve never been one of those women that stuck
around because it was the norm or because I didn’t feel like I could stand on
my own two feet. That isn’t to say that
I don’t try to fix what is going on in the relationship or that I don’t want to
find someone I can have “forever” with.
I just won’t be taken for granted, I won’t be someone’s last priority
and I sure as hell won’t be so dependent on another person that I can’t be my
own person.
16. What do you value most in a
friendship?
I value people who are willing to call me on my
bullshit. I need people who can see what
I am doing and be able to say, “Hey, you need to be more objective.” I cherish the friendships that are not gentle
with me.
17.
What
is your most treasured memory?
This one is tough. I
would love to say it was when I had my son, but that was miserable. I choose the first time Holden told me he
loved me. The moment I knew that my
little boy was a caring and loving individual who I had raised to be kind and
nurturing.
18. What is your most terrible
memory?
I had one of those childhoods that people write books about
and you read them the whole time thinking, “I am so glad I didn’t have to live
that”. So, I would say that the giant
chunk of my life that is mentally blocked probably has some pretty awful stuff
tucked in there. More recently? When I
realized that my most recent ex wasn’t ever going to be the person I needed him
to be.
19. If you knew that in one year
you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now
living? Why?
I would work less and I would be present more. I tend to shut out the world and my life and
just try to seek quiet in my own mind.
20. What does friendship mean to
you?
Friendship means crawling back to someone over and over
because you realize that they knew you were being an idiot, but you also know
they aren’t going to rub your face in it because they love you and they’ve been
waiting for you to figure it out.
21.
What
roles do love and affection play in your life?
Love hasn’t ever been something I really understood until
recently. I’ve always equated physical
touch to love and I haven’t been able to detach the two. I am working on grasping the idea that
someone can love me from all the way across the world and it doesn’t make it
any less loving than a person who shares a home with me. I used to hate affection, I felt stifled by
it. I took a test in college that ranked
emotional personality and I ranked pretty close to dead inside. I wanted no affection and I only cared about
mental connections a little bit. I’m
much better about affection now. I hug
friends and I hold my son and I look forward to being in the arms of someone
who truly loves me.
22. Alternate sharing something
you consider a positive characteristic of your partner. Share a total of five
items.
I guess I will answer this as the things I want:
1.
Kindness
2.
Sincerity
3.
Trust
4.
Warmth
5.
Attraction
23. How
close and warm is your family? Do you feel your childhood was happier than most
other people’s?
I don’t feel like my childhood was happier than most other’s. I don’t feel like it was the worst in the world
either. My family is not necessarily
very close. We talk, we are friends on
Facebook, but we are mostly a holidays and special occasions family.
24. How do you feel about your
relationship with your mother?
I feel like my relationship with my mother could be
better. We are from such different times
that she doesn’t understand why I would choose to play a video game to relax
(as she crushes candy for hours on the iPhone she has permanently attached to
her hand). She feels like I don’t raise my son in exactly the way I should and
I guess all moms feel that way. I love
her and I appreciate all of the sacrifices she made for me when I was growing
up and I appreciate that she taught me what it was like to be strong.
25. Complete this sentence: ‘I wish I had someone
with whom I could share … ‘
I wish I had someone with whom I could share… everything. I want a person who understands me and doesn’t
look at me like I’m crazy when I say what I want or when I talk about something
I love.
26. If you were going to become a
close friend with someone, share what would be important for him or her to
know.
I’m offensive. I don’t
normally edit myself very well (especially my facial expressions). I have chewed out CEOs for things I think
they have done wrong and I have told employees that they have one more question
to ask before they are cut off for a week. I’m an equal opportunity jerk.
27. Share an embarrassing moment
in your life.
I once played an entire violin solo with my tongue out in
front of the entire school and all the parents in attendance.
28. When did you last cry in
front of another person? By yourself?
I cried in front of another person a few months ago when I
thought I lost a friend. And by myself,
probably when I had the flu and I was frustrated that I was sick.
29. What, if anything, is too
serious to be joked about?
Nothing, I’m not easily offended.
30. If you were to die this
evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most
regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?
I would regret not telling my son that he is good enough and
strong enough to get through life no matter what comes his way. I haven’t told him because he is too young to
care at this point.
31.
Your
house, containing everything you own, catches fire. After saving your loved
ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item.
What would it be? Why?
I would save my son’s baby book with pictures of when he first
came home.
32. Of all the people in your
family, whose death would you find most disturbing? Why?
I don’t like to think about it, but my mom’s death would be
disturbing. She’s the glue that holds
our family together. Without her, I fear
we wouldn’t see each other or talk to each other at all. Slightly more disturbing would be my son’s
death, but I can’t even think about that.